{Saturday, July 30, 2005 YY
30th July 2oo5`]]
hmms. Time passes so fast. The prelims are coming and i'm still not really ready. I'm hoping that when it comes, i'd be fully ready and i hope that i will be able to do well. hahahas. oral is on wednesday and.. i hate oral. it just isn't my thing. i always screw at chinese. i just. don't know how to say it. sighhs. and listening compre sucks. i mean for chinese. was it because i wasn't paying attention? or was it because i'm utterly stupiid? Mrs leong didn't turn up on Fridayy. Dat's why we didn't actually like get back our compo corrections.. We got a new P.E teacher and she seems rather nice. we're learning to play volley ball and i kinda like it. it's funn.. hahahs.
Todayy was a not really slackk day? I studied and woke up early. is 9 am considered early? i jsut realised that waking up early can help me finishh up so many things. okayys. maybbe not many.. but still i did manage to finish what i had promised myself to do. hahahs.
The injection ain't that pain anymore. i can move my hand now.. thank god for that. On Fridayy, after science supple, I was waiting for my mum and when my mum came, i just walked to the car and went in, when i was about to close the door, i saw chriselle staring at me.. and for a moment, i felt as if time froze and it was like, i was looking back at her. The feeling was just so..... weird. and the atmosphere was like so intense and my mum noticed it too so she asked me what happened. seriously, i don't know what happened. it just happened.. weirdd. for a moment she freaked me out. But now come to think of it, i was rather composed when i looked at her. it was like. there was like so many emotions in her eyes and she was just staring at me.. and i was.. blank. i wasn't thinking about anything. all i did was returned a look which i don't know last for how long because i felt as if the earth had stopped spinning and i was just looking at her blankly with no sort of feeling in me. weirdd larrs.
Hoping that life would be so much more easier for me. focusing on my studies now.. hopefully everything will turn out fine...
I found myself today.
I found myself and ran away.
Something pulled me back.
Voice of reason i forgot i had.
All i know is you're not here to say.
what you're always here to say..
But it's written in the sky tonight
So i won't give up.
No i won't break down.
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And i will be strong.
Even if it all goes wrong.
When i'm standing in the dark,
I'll still believe,
Someone's watching over me.
Someone's watching over me
- Hilary Duff
Driving myself to go for the best in me
- Riel
;`8:46 PM
{Tuesday, July 26, 2005 YY
26th July 2oo5`]]
darnn..todayy was horrible.. i hate the jabb... hahahas. and i criedd.. threshold of pain ishh really low.. it was really pain.. now it's just starting to numb... i skipped lunch... reason... it was freaking pain... haixx. i quote my mum.. "You babii arrs? why you cry?" den she laughed at me. ahhahs.. aixx... still hurt tho.. except it's numb pain.. i totally hate this jabb. i hate it!! Wahhh....
Hmms. besides that, todayy was rather ok.. i forgot to do PSLE compre and chinese test paper thingg. den i rushed to finishh it in skool. And i didn't know jabb was after recess so.. i rushed like siao.. stuppidd.. Todayy Mrs Yeo never come to skool. Maybbe she's sickk.. hmms. she has to come on thurrs. i need science lessons.. hahhas..
1 more week till prelim oral... needa get ready... sobbs... oh wells..
i slept like after i went home, hoping for the pain to ease down.. and yayy!! it did!! hohoho.. madd lerrs. it's still frigging numb.. psst. i didn't really know i would cry for jabs.. p1 i nvr norrs... = not counteddd?? lolx = and i criiedd. hmms.. the nurses were stuupiid. lolx. 1st one, i was like darnn tense. was scared outta my wits.. she ask me... can eat chicken egg.. i nodd. den later she nvr ask me to relax just jabb.. and ahhh.... really pain.. 2nd one. ask name. i say Ariel ask full name den i say Ariel Tan Hui Juan. Dens he say cannot hear so i have to repeat.. den laterr was like... loud oredi larrs.. den she say cannot hear again!! Urghh! she wasn't helping lorrs. the sour thing sucked.. it tastedd like crapp.. hahahs..
Never look back we said
How was I to know I'd miss you so?
Loneliness up ahead
Emptiness behind, where do I go?
And you didn't hear all my joy through my tears
All my hopes through my fears, did you know?
Still I miss you somehow
From the bottom of my broken heart
There's just a thing or two I'd like you to know
You were my first love, you were my true love
From the first kisses to the very last rose
From the bottom of my broken heart
Even though time may find me somebody new
You were my real love,
I never knew love Til there was you
From the bottom of my broken heart
Painedd...
- Riel
;`5:44 PM
{Monday, July 25, 2005 YY
25th July 2oo5`]]
okayys. todayy was a superr non slackk dayy.. hmms. i studied alot todayy. feel that i achieved somethingg...
Benn and Mergii's madd at me for not going to founder's day. Urghhh.. That's kinda...... Sadd.. Hmms.. Btw.. HAPPY BURDAE MGS... hmms.. life just sucks now..
oh wells. who cares larrs. hmms. so yupps.. shortt post cox i got nuthing to sayy larrs..
Now i'm standing in the cold,
Everything is said and done.
Atomic Winter in my soul,
From the Absence of the sun.
The only remedy I know,
Is I got to let you go.
Here I am,
Here I am.
There will come a day when all of this is in my past,
And there will come a day when you're out of my head at last.
I'm Trying not to fall,
Damn it's such a long way down.
But here I am.
Here I am
- Marion Raven
I'm falling..
- Riel
;`8:41 PM
{Sunday, July 24, 2005 YY
24th July 2oo5`]]
Heyys.. Todayy's a rather slackky dayy. i think i chiong more yesterdayy... hmms. ALOT MORE. hahhas. todayy was totally slackk. good thing i finishhed all my work on saturdayy. whooopee.. hahahs..
Church was quite nice. Except for the fact that bro rendy got angry at us and then he walked out of the service. feel rather srry tho. because i wasn't giving 100% of my attention. tho i did listen to his sermon. the skits put up was really funny. hahahs. the lazarus one was funny. julian dressed up as a dead corpse. which er-hem.. doesn't look like one. seeing that he was wrapped up in tissue like.. a mummy. hahahs. was so funny. hmms. iit was a good lesson tho.
i just found out from my new source. ahhahs. joelle, that derrick... something wei jian. i think ishh leong.. or was it hou? whadever larrs. but he went in to the semi finals cox he got the most vote on the revival round.. i guessed as muchh. since he really did best among the rest anyways.. kinda sadd tho. i wanted sebastian.. [wei qiang] to go in.... arghh! nvm larrs. wei qiang looked so adorable... in that cute pic!! ahhahahsh.. *boncusfied* no such wordd tho... hehhs.
i bought energy's new album todayy. okayys. ishh actually their zui hou de le yuan except this one has their mv thing. hmms. was really nice. arghh!! i was kinda sadd larrs.. i just watched it half an hour ago.. ahhahas. and i was cleaning, conditioning and shining my nails.. i got like three filers for different kinds of filing. ahahhas.. now my nails feels smooth and look shiny.. yippee.. hahahhas...
i suckk at road rage todayy!! Sniffs. bro beat me todayy.. *wo bu gan xin* Wahhhh!!! tmrw's founder's dayy.. happy burfdae to mgs in advance.. aixx... i dun wanna go. i dun think i'm going bahhs. so boring.. *srry* hahahhas. just dun feel like going bahhs.. sian. stay home to sleep better. here goes my zhu-ing again. aixx.. oh wells. i need to studyy harderr. but quan shen like feel so sian lehhs. dun wan studyy de... sighhs...
Don't speak, seal your lips,
Please don't say a word
Maybe I won't remember the words I have not heard
I see that you're in love, I know it's not with me
But I don't want the truth to haunt my memory
It's never too late to relight the fire
It never stopped burning for me
The flame, it never died inside of me
Now I realise that you're no longer mine
But I'm hoping the pain will heal in time
Although your leaving, I won't say goodbye
Because I know your here with me inside,
Now I realise....
I'll Take The Tears
- A1
Sadly and painfully lethargic...
- Riel
;`10:30 PM
{Saturday, July 23, 2005 YY
23rd July 2oo5`]]
Heyys.. Hvn't been blogging lately.. aixx.. Basically, school's like normal and everythingg.. we celebratedd racial harmony on fridayy.. our class didn't win a thingg. sighhs. i wishhed pei ru had won. i dun like milicentt.. or however you spell her name.. she's just so full of herself.. like i mean.. just cox she acts in kids central, she thinks she's better than anyone.. oh wells.. shldn't be tokking badd about ppl..
todayy was like plain slackk. hahahs. i read alot tho. that's good right?? hmms.. my toe bled todayy. dying from excessive bleeding. lolx.. i used 2 plasters within like whad? 5 or 6 mins? it was like frigging bloody and hahahas. the blood went onto the floor too. ouchh. timmy was so sweet to provide me plasters tho he was gross out with my bloody toe. hahahs. have a liking for puzzle of my heart. i miss this songg.. oh wells. it's just.. really really nice.. ^^,
i think i'm emotionally not myself todayy. i'm so... different?? no idea bahhs. the feelings just not there.. it's just weirding me outt. i think i've gone psyco.. aixx.. oh wells..
Everytime we meet, the picture is complete,
Everytime we touch, the feeling is too much,
She's all i ever need, to fall in love again,.
I knew it from the very start,
She's the puzzle of my heart...
Puzzle of My heart.
- Westlife
Emotionally not myself. Whad happened to me?
- Riel
;`7:46 PM
{Wednesday, July 20, 2005 YY
20th July 2oo5`]]
Heyys.. Todayy.. I kinda slackked abit.. Seemingly tiredd. zzz... But not asleep yett.. Hmms. IT was good. kinda missed the dayy when me, tiff, mel and sheryl were like closerr. it was like really really funn. hmms. todayy sure bring back loads of memories... *sighhs* hmms. i saw energy on tv todayy. and i went ballistic.. lolx.. typical me.
I need to buck up and studyy harderr. i need to do well. and i need to perform better. mrs leong's period ishh still as boring as everr.. miss jay ishh still as pissed off as ever.. and i'm crapped out. i'm like super lethargic todayy. gladd i still got some workk done.. Sniffing really badly. air-con's too coldd. lolx.. Kor's doing his artt. it looks like superr nice lorrs. even i won't be able to draw like this.. urghh!!
Life is like a dream everyone chase afterrr.....
Crapped up me.
- Riel
- We believe in this love?? -
Tmrw ishh Ah di's burfdae... Happy burfdae in advance Ah dii!! Wee. lol. it's like aboutt.. 34 mins till his bufdaee.. hhahhahas.. nvm. ^^,
;`11:17 PM
{Monday, July 18, 2005 YY
18th July 2oo5`]]
Heyys.. Hmms.. todayy was rather.. normal. hehhs. i slacked off abit. but i managed to do prelim paper.. rather shitty. i finished all my hw like in skool. and so there's like practically alot of time for me to do somemore prelim papers. which i am doing. hahahas.
school was kinda okayys. for chinese period. an ant crawled on my collar. i dunno how it ended there larrs. so i picked it up and... killed it?? hmms. dat's evil.. hahahs. so me and grace went a lil siao. den we did this burial for the ant. we buried it with eraser dust. fresh eraser dust actually hohoho. hmms. it was really fun larrs.. music was rather fun. actually.. not really. but seeing mrs lim brings back the good times.
Englishh was errs.. normal larrs. really boring. was drifting off to sleep.. zzz... i miss mr lim!! argghhh!! his lessons are so much more interestingg... no offence mrs leong.. hehhs..
math arrs... i htink miss jay ishh like pissed with us for some reason.. not sure. she has this i'm angry with you ppl attitude. aixx... weirdd... not to worry tho. i;m not bothered by it.. just gonna concentrate on my studies... hahhas..
Dinner was relatively crazyy. tim made us all laugh with his crazyy antics. ahahhas. he's siao larrs. ahhahas. cute bro i haf larrs. but really irritating.. hahahhas. olderr bro's funny lolx. he claimed he was fatter when seriously i think he looks really skinny. hahahahs.
heardd benn had a relatively badd dayy? hopeit goes well for her tmrw... take things easy yarrs??
off to continue my lil fanfiction thingg. *winkx to benn* hohoho..
I am beauiful no matter what they say.
words can't bring me down.
I am beautiful in every single way.
yes words can't bring me down..
oh no..
so don't you bring me down todayy...`]]
Am i beautiful? Nahhs...
- Riel
;`7:38 PM
{Sunday, July 17, 2005 YY
17th o7 2oo5`]]
Heyys. firstt of all, i want to say a HAPPY BURfDAE!! HAPPY HAPPY BURFDAE to FAITH!! hehhs. sadd i can't be there for youu worrs. parcel delivering the prezzie to youu. how long does it take arrs?? hmms.. i'm missing youu girll! you moved blog?? tell me the new url okiex?!! hehhs...
So yupps. church was great... nice! hee... that's all i can sayy tho. hahahas. brudder's madd. hee. i playedd. burnoutt i think on the X box at my gran's house. was so funn. thrashed my lil brother like.. 4 to 8. hahahhas. was really fun. and i learnt the art of drifting!! hahahhas.
i'm dead beat. i finished my word plus art writing competition thingg!! i'm really gladd. Many thanks to Jie Jen for helping to explain whad the stupid theme ish about. "Building Blocks -inspiration from Architecture. i sure didn't really get the inspiration partt. hahahas. i couldn't exceed like 500 words and so i think my story sucked. hee. i just can't write short storyys. i fail in that criteria. hohoho. hmms..
i can't believe i totally forgott that todayy was jonas's burfdae. i didn't really realise in my whole 12 years of living that hahahs, my cousin had the same burfdae as faithh. hahahhs.. was so funny. Cox mmms. we were like posing for the burdae cake thing. where we did the routinery thing called singing the burfdae song... and all. hahhas. den we first sang the burfdae songg.. den he was supposed to make a wishh and blow out the candles before cutting the cake. but. hahhas. he forgott to blow his candles. denn he straight away cut the cake. it was really funny at that moment.. Then he's this moody moody guyy. hahhas. he doesn't like smiling. so when his dad went like "Jonas.. Smile for the camera larrs..." then he replied, "You dun disturb me then i smile larrs..." was so funny. hahhas. lolx.
On the way home from gran's..olderr bro was playing with his samsung fone. hhahahs. it had a flash light and so he shined it on the person's car and hahahs. the driver of the car that was next to us was like really annoyed. so i told my brotherr. "go flashh him.." hahhahs. and my maid, lisa was like, "He's already so annoyed... you flash him, he'll knock your car larrs!!" hahahas. was so funny okkayys.. bro's cawazzie de!! hohoho...
wonderr if youth's going to be as funn as pre-teens!!! hahahhas.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,I will never be with you.
Flying high up to the skyy.. Dreaming of the things that i can never do...
- Riel
;`10:09 PM
{Saturday, July 16, 2005 YY
16th July 2oo5`]]
Heyys, Prelims coming closer and closerr. i'm stressedd.. i really wanna do well. hmms. really going to mugg like shitt. hahahs. hmms. i went to watch fantastic 4 yesterdayy with my brothers and my mum. dad's out of town again. sighhs. hmms. suprisingly, we met kor kor gary there!! *smilex* it's been like what? 2 to 3 years since i've seen him... still looks as shuai as ever. he's my oldest cousin everr. hmms. and among all my cousins from my dadd's side.. he's the shuaiest!! *gleams* kinda nice to see him larrs. we met him in GV at great worldd. hahahs. we were going in oredii and he was with his friends.. so we saw him and chatted for a while.. Fantastic four was preety. good. ^^, hmms. The chris evan? or whadeverr his name ishh. he's nice and funny. hahahs. he's that johnny / torch guyy. hahahs. one partt the nurse or somehting was checking his temp, and she went. urr hot. and he replied, "You're hot too!" lolx.. when he went snowboarding with her.. he.. hahhhas. burst into flames.. hahhahs. and made this big hole in the snow. the snow melted and the water was liek steaming hot.. and he was... nude. ahhahs. cox his clothes were all burnt. hahahs. and he asked the women.. "You wanna join me??" hohoho. he's so comical. he asked Ben, the thing, "Where's your ears?" Lolx. and he put whip cream on one of Ben's hands and tickled his face. when he reached out to touch his face.. the whip cream was on him. ahhahahs. Ending was sweet. the invisable girl and mr fantastic.. he was proposing to her.. and she went invisable and said yes. Don't exactly know how he could still see her. ahahhas. den when they kissed. he kissed her nose. hhahahs. and den she became human again and went. "That's my nose genius. This is my lisp.." den she kissed him.. hohoho.. gone siao. i love the show.. ^^,
Today i went to lil bro's nomadd carnival.. hmms. i met stephanie there... errs. let's see.. i saw sarahh!! my childhood friend?? Yeahhs.. she fits perfectly in that categoryy... it's been liek ages since i've seen her. she looks the same!! Barnie changed so muchh!! hahahhas. and he can't rememberr me!! sobbs. hahahs. Sameuel or however you spell his name. still looks the same!! chubby. hehhs. and so ishh barnie.. sarahh slimed down so muchh!! hehhs. I saw fandi ahmadd's wife. sadd to sayy. i dunno how to spell his name. ahahaa.. i went to far east todayy. their stuffs are kinda nice. hahhahs. must go to their neo shopp. it's nice and bigg!! ^^, tim acted todayy. there were like a bunch of barker bois breaking during tim's concertt. Tim's was a swan that looked like a rooster.. hahahhas. i mean his costume. hahahs. so cutee!! i took like tons of picx of him. hohohoho..
and to top it all. i saw this cute guyy!! while i was going home. hahahs. i'm crazy larrs. yupps. hmms. oh wells. dun care larrs.
i wanna be a starr. giving light to the darkk. i wanna be a bridge. helping people cross over high places and thru waters... i wanna be a cloud. giving rain to the people so no drought will be upon them. but mostly.. i wanna be me. to be someone who can help people thru what i do. thru who i am. i just wanna be me.
Am i alone?
- Riel
;`10:29 PM
{Monday, July 11, 2005 YY
11th July 2oo5`]]
Heyys. I dun lykk mondayys. Because i usually get mondayy blues. hahahas.. Hmms, todayy was a rather nice one. i guess.. hee. hmms, so yupps, we had this vote for contestant and i was one of the nominees. rather flattered. but nope. i didn't want to be it. i mean, it'd be just really weird to be parading and strutting about doing the 'cat walk'. hahhas. i don't really know if you have to. but it's usually associated with the parading right?? muahahhas. In the end, i didn't win. wasn't disappointedd tho. ^.^ hahahas. hmms, P.E was ratherr funn. we played bball. and i todayy, finally realised that i totally suckk at the sport i love. that's so sadd.. *sobbs* hmms. i have to do this really stupid thing.. it's like.. this art competition thing. and i have to pass it up by fridayy. the artchitect thing is also dued on fridayy. it's first draft. and i'm so dead. i have like no idea whad to do. zero. zlitch. nil. aixx... i have to design the stupid shirt thing too. it's like... dued on wednesdayy. and prelims are coming.. argghhh!!! *racking myself* ohhs todayy. one of the stupidest thing that happened. I did NOT bring my pencil box. How can i possibly forget?!! wahh!! *sobbs*
I think during englishh. i got this really crazy feeling or the thought. it was.. like vincent's rather funny. and nice? AHHH!!! *die* whad's wrong with me. he's xiao. yet nice. urgghh!! Madd oredii. hahahas. tmrw ishh like tuesdayy. wonder whadd will exactly happen tmrw..
I heard energy's oldd songs todayy. it made me feel sadd. since they're disbanding.. *sobbs* To energy: "Ni men yao jia you worrs! Wo yong yuan hui zhi chi ni men de!!" Aix. Sad case..
I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken is broken -- and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived.
Margaret Mitchell`]]
Some of us think holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go.
Herman Hesse`]]
Losing all hope.]]Then getting them back again.]]
- Riel
;`8:45 PM
{Sunday, July 10, 2005 YY
1oth july 2oo5`]]
Heyys. churchh was nice todayy. I likedd the part where god gave paster pris two words. "Broken Dreams" I went for alter call todayy. It was really touchingg. I mean, whatever Pastor Pris said during alter call, it touched me. and i cried. not as muchh as other ppl. but i did shed tears. I mean she really hit the nail. It was really touchingg!! *droans on* It's good godd healed Vera's leg when the ppl prayed!! Go Vera!! *god.ishh.so.great* So yupps, i'm planing my time wisely now. No more slacking. No more lazing around. It's strict business now. The funny partt. hmms. we were playing this game called shipwreck. it's like an ice breaker. except. we didn't need to break the ice. cox everyone weren't new. Basically, it was for us to have FUNN. lolx. when sister.. *i forgot her name. oops* said like the sturn. we were all heading for the backk. Then vincent was like next to exra. den he went. *not sure if he was tokking to me. or benn.* he went like, "Todayy never bring your hello kitty to play arrs?!" - Something liddat- hahahhas. den i dunno whadd happened larrs. Ben suddenly pushhed me and the next thing i knew, i screamed and accidentally whacked vincent on the arm. *i think* wahh!! was so scary. i nearly fell on him okayy!! *not.funny* Urghh. and benn was actually aiming to hit him.. ARghh!! End up whacking me!! *humph* oh wells. Going into small groups, we were supposed to write down our mid-year markks. Den i had to sit at the corner. Hmms. And i dunno. i half wayy writing. Vincent suddenly pop out from nowhere. he's like.. hmms. 2 rows behind us.. sitting besides.. his best pal i think. :Ezra. Den he went like, "Is grade larrs!!" Or something.. it was really funny. okayys. maybbe not. it was really weirdd. dunno. hahahs. i think he walked up and down a few times denn.. each time he walked pass our row.. = My row, sitting with Benn, Geri, Abby, Xue Er, Joelle and vera.. = He would go. "Is grade!!" he did that a couple of times. hmms. rather funny. Before that, we hadd to sit on the floor, cox no space.. Andd Brother Rendy made Bendick or Benedict's row give upp their seats for us!! Whoo-Pee. No sitting on the floor... hahahhs.
I ate dinner at Serangoon Gardens country club. It was really nice and appetizing.. one thing horrs. ishh they provide tv.. then, their screen ishh huge!! cox it's like a projector kind. Yarrs. that one was like in the middle and i could see EVERYTHING clearly!! Was so happy. ahahhas. Hmms. Watched the NKF charity show 2. it was like really really sadd.. Cried at a few parts. One was like this 4 year old boi. he got brain cancer. so cute okayys!! then he got brain cancer.. den he's like bald now.. the udder one ishh this 55 year old women.. so poor thing. oso got brain cancer.. her family loves her alot. even her mother who is 89 years old. her mother nvr once scolded her or whacked her. den when she got brain cancer, her mother helped with the house hold work. and she even cooked for her!! so loving! and her daughter, she studied hard for her o's because she wanted her mum to be happy and she knew that if she didn't studyy hardd, her mum will blame it on herself.. arghhh!! t'was so sadd..*sobbs*
It's so late now, bro's still studyingg.. *yawns* gonna hit the sack now... hopefully i will remember to bring everything to school tmrw. I so do not want my name to be on the book. It suckks... *bleahhs*
The excruciating pain has finally left me and i feel at ease. Is it because i'm finally letting go and moving on? or is it because i've finally. finally given up all hope??
Un-Breaking the Broken Dreams.
- Riel
;`11:06 PM
{Saturday, July 09, 2005 YY
9th July 2oo5`]]
Heyys,Still can't get over yesterdayy. it was so funn!! Hmms.. Todayy, i studied a lot. The temptation for me to play the comp was conquered!! yayy!! Todayy my lil bro punched me in the face. nincompoop. so pissed man. and he didn't even say sorry after that. bleahhs!! Was so painful!!
I'm tokking to sherlynn. Well it was on the brink of ending but it didn't . Thanks mergii for surpporting me!! One of the greatest friends man.. So i guess, me and sherlynn's starting all over again. as friends. yupps as friendss..
Hmms. So yupps. having a terrible tummy ache now.. Shall go the toilet. lolx.. Vera sprained her muscles!!! so poor thingg... Hope she's fine....
The air has cleared. That's a good thing to hear.
Striving for the best that i can be.
- Riel
;`10:59 PM
{Friday, July 08, 2005 YY
8th July 2oo5`]]
Heyys. I had so muchh fun todayy. we actually hadd a surprise partyy for Merrilyn!! Hahahahas. We just crashed into her msn acc and we talked to like all her friends. hahahs. it was so funny. the part when we tokked to the duckk was like crazyy.. Abigail and Naurin? i think that's her name. hahahs. We pranked them. they were talking to a "Guy". called Ariel. lolx. actually guys name can be called ariel too. except they are not pronounced like mine. hohoho. I'm also.. like Ariel goh, a bowler. muahhahahs. so funny. hmms. one thing i concluded. bowler guyys aren't that hot. they're ugly.. *oops* did i just sayy that?!! hohoho. Then before the chat, we talked to each other bout a LOT of funny stuffs. hmms. in a way, i think we got closer to grace... and kelly. and all of us were so much closer.. hahahs. me and benn got closer too. and wan huii. altho she had to leave early.. hmms. decorating the place with her was funn. hahahas. We played with fire.. hahhas. it was like... using the candles, we lighted it.. den we threw dead leaves and all those crapp on it to make the fire bigger. Kelly's one succeeded to became like a huge bon-fire. lolx. hahhahs. was REALLY REally funn. Hope mergii had as muchh fun as i had!! ^^, hmms yupps. The sadd thing is... That i burnt my hand quite a numbe rof times. now as i blogg. my tumb is sore and numb... i know. lesson learnt: Cannot play with fire. Hahahahas. but it was still really fun. and i guess, it was worth it!! Whoo-Hoo!! ^.6 Hmms. Need to buck up for Prelims. and psle. 34 more days to prelims. Riel must jia you!!!
To all the p6s out there. Good luckk for Psle!!! and Pre-lims too!! Work hard dun slackk!!!! Den after Psle den we celebrate! Wee!!!
One more thing. School, dodgers... [Dodge ball + Rounders Together as one game] Was preety fun. and wells, funny.. Psst.. Chriselle didn't tie her hair todayy. that's nice.. Benn told me that hahhas. she saw chriselle and sherlynn at the linkway... they were like.. "You're hair's really nice." Than touch touch the hair. muahahhahahs. that's so funny!!! *burst out lafing* No offence but that's preety weirdd. *shudders* it's kinda gross. like lezzy.. oops. did i just say that...??
I find myself treating sherlynn so evily. well the thing is. i dunno. hahahas. errs, let's just sayy, we wouldn't work out as like so close friends anymore. why? Because.. our worlds are far apart. and the gap is, not surprisingly, moving further away. it's not like i dun wanna be her friend or anything. she just doesn't care and to me, if one party doesn't care about the friendshipp, then whad's th epoint of continuing that stupid friendship. as the saying goes. you need two hands to clap. and right now. it's just one. so yupps. i'm just letting her decide the future. I got no hard feeling towards her or anything. None of that sort..
Happiness is finally overcoming my Pain. Sadness is floating away... it's melting. I feel so muchh lighter. But why does my heart still beat so rapidly when i suddenly click on his msn convo? one wordd for it, - INTERESTING - lolx. ^^,
mixedd upp feelings inside. - Still, i'm particularly happy todayy.`]]
- Riel
;`11:13 PM
{Thursday, July 07, 2005 YY
7th July 2oo5`]]
heyys. School's quite okayy todayy. Hmms I went to visit my tutor todayy. her baby ishh SOO cute!! his cheeks were so nice and smooth. and he kept making funny faces. hohoho. he was so cute!! all wrapped up and cuddly. ahhh... *gushes* on the way to mount Av. my mum got lost 3 times. hahhahas. was so funny...
my little brother is psycotic.. he needs to go to the mental hospital for some care in his ass brain!! *fumes* he just whacked me mans.. and now my hands are like frigging redd!! damn i so want to ask him to..... *okayys. i won't go that farr anymore* He shld just die.. urgghhh!!! I feel like kicking his ass to outer space. but as you know, my dad will most probably kill me so yuups. i have to ren!! Damn, he think's he's so great. he takes my stuff without permission!! Arggh!!! *kills him* AHHH!!!! *screams* sometimes i can't take it!! What is his problem?!!!! He is mental!!! URGGHH!!!!!!
Anywyas, i shall breathe slowly.. Hands are frigging pain.. it's like SUPERR red... Stupid boi!! Urgghh!!!! Defending myself would be to punch him. but.. whad if my dad kill me?? That runs in my head. and so... i didn't punchh him. sighhs... That's sadd.. So frustratedd!!!
things are going on well in school. I'm coping. I hate Science. Urghhh!! Why am i whining??!!! I have so muchh hw!!! i'm having this fever now... my head hurts!! Sighhhs.. i haven't done Lao shi's exam paper and Miss Jay's angle worksheet. Darnn.. I'm so dead...
guess, i really really have to do it. Can't hold it any longer. My head ishh killing me!! It hurts!! Not to mention my hand too!! Timothy's getting stronger!! Too badd i'm still strongerr.. Strong enuf to beat him to a pulp. That's what he don't know.. He uses his legs. That's stupid.. i only use my hands okayys!! Well, i didn't do any harm on him. *sadd to sayy* I just grabbed his whacking hand and wells, errs. defended myself. His watch scratched my hand till kanasaii!!! Sighhs!! little Brother's are a pain in the arse!! ARGHH!!!!
Okayss.. Enuf of that... Today's mergii's burfdae so i wanna take this good opportunity to sayy... a Happy Happy Birthday to Mergii!! Happy Birthdayy!! hmms. yupps. hope you had a wonderfull day todayy!!!
In life, there's that one certain person who walks inand suddenly turns your world around. They make yourlife so much more worth living and every time you'rewith them or when you talk to them, you can forget about allof your worries and pain. They change you into a better person and stop you from doing all your wrongs.You just want them to be happy and you want to be withthem forever. You're so lost in them that everythingjust seems to disappear. You'd do anything for them,but at the end, they tell you to leave. Have you everfell in love with someone like that? Love is crazy,Love is blind, Yet we humans wouldn't be able to live without it...
"Though our memories of todays will soon be of yesterdays,they will forever live in our tomorrows..."
Dragging on the surface of the earth. - Might not be able to make it to the end.`]]
- Riel
;`10:03 PM
{Wednesday, July 06, 2005 YY
6th July 2oo5`]]
Heyys, I went for the architecture thingg todayy and now i'm expected to go for the word + art competition...!! Ahhhs... I don't want to do it... It's criteria ishh like SOO boring!! It's like about 6 places. you must write just about 1 of them.. and i'm dead.. cox i really have no idea what to write. and we must hand in first draft like end of next week or end of this week. arghhh!!! *groans* Plus now, i have to studyy extra hardd for exams... Pre-lims are coming in.. 36 dayys.. fast rights?!! Sighhs..
Todayy, we went to the computer lab to do the Inventions thing Mrs Leong was talking about. I did with Benn. We did this invention about.. what was it about?? hmms, i forgott the name of the invention. but it usedd to be called 'Ginger'. Now it's called... Something HT transporter.. hahhaas. I forgott the first wordd... =X It was rather funn. i guess.. never really heardd of that invention before. lolx.. *paisehh*
Hmms, for the competition.. i think i'm either writing on Thian Hock Keng Temple or the Black and White houses. Tho i didn't exactly get muchh facts for the Black and White one. I might also do the St Andrews Cathedral tho.. It seemed so nice... =P
Tmrw ishh Ting Xie and Mo Xie. but i seem to have lostt the list... * i die* So i can't learnn.. I'm so so so darn dead. oops. *Die Die Die* ohhs. and i shortened my anti-drug essay. muahahhahas. cox i had to. over write liaos.. =X hehhs. So sadd tho. was really chamms.. Aix...
School wasn't muchh funn todayy. But it wasn't badd eitherr. It was just plain normal bahhs. Something lidddat... ^^,
Untill you're back here baby
Miss you, want you, need you so
Untill you're back here baby yeh
There's a feelin inside, I want you to know
You are the one and i can't.... let you go.
- Back Here
BB Mak`]]
We seem to be worlds apart. And that you must agree. We don't seem to need to continue what we used to have. You and I are now the pass. So when I look at you, all you see is someone distant. Not someone close to you. You've changed through time. And I must admit, So have I. I don't mean to be rude, But you have changed for the worst. I don't seem to know you anymore. And maybbe, you might think I changed for the worst too. But Maybe, I'm wrong about You. I don't think I am though. The way you treat others is so different from the way you used to treat them. You might think i've changed for the worst. But let me tell you something, I believe that i have, changed for the better. I don't think i am wrong. I don't think I'm worst than before. I just learned from my mistakes and picked myself up. You know most of my secrets. But so what? Even if you tell them to everyone. Specifically Her. I don't care. Because that was the pass. And right Now... It is the present.`]]
Swirling with the different times`]]
- Riel
;`8:45 PM
{Tuesday, July 05, 2005 YY
5th July 2oo5`]] -
Heyys, I just got backk from skool. and i found out that my tution teacher had gone into labour todayy and that i'd have no tution for like?? whad?? a month?? hmms.. some people might like it. but i don't !! ahhhs.. Very scaredd i don't do well for my pre-lims and psle... Hehhs. i'm being so dependent on her!! hahahas. the baby's a boy.. i wanna see!! wondering how cute it'd look like. hehhhs... ^^,
School was well, kinda okayys. we hadd photo taking todayy andd i stood next to joyy. hahahas. we did like normal one firstt. this really serious de. altho i didn't think i look serious. muahahhahas. hmms. den i think it was candid.. hahahas... we were like cheezing. i did that bunny ear thing on joyy. lolx. hahahahas. Englishh was a bore!!! Mrs Leong rambled on and used the computer to talk about inventions. it was so boringg. i read a book secretly.. although i know it wasn't that nice of me to do so, but... aix.. was just so boringg!!! and i had nothing else to do. listening to her might have made me fallen asleep!! hahahhas. i didn't think many was paying attention. hehhhs... ^^, No more Mr. Lim. it's not really funn without him. he's really nice and funny. with the special effects!! he's one of the best teachers!! in terms of teaching bahhs. hahahs. My name was written on the board ready to be delievered into the book!!! NOOO!!! *wails* i'm so sadd. my name has never, let me repeat NEVER been on the book!!*wails again* unlike some people, i do care about my name being in the book!! wahhhs!!! Today for moral ed, we had to present some funny presentation.. it was preety weird. when i returned to my seat, sherlynn purposedly whispered to chriselle. i found it hardd not to stare at her striaght in the face. now that i think of it, i could have punched her for being so intimidating. muahahhahs. I'm so evil. *okok must stop being like this. xD*
Lunch was plain.. aix.. i heard that my maid's cuzz is coming. and they're going to sentosa on sundayy!! woo.. that's like super nice. i wanna go again!! wee. hehhs. sadd i'm not going. going to pre-teens on sundayy!!! Yayy!!* a shout for joyy*
Reminder: Mergii's Burfdae ishh coming!!! - 7th July - What to buyy for her?!!! *panicky* need to thiink. faith's burfdae oso coming.. ishh benn going to fed-ex something to her?? if she ishh den, hmms. i might too!! woo... hehhs.
I've tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is incomplete
- Incomplete
`[[Backstreet Boys]]`
Need to strive hardd in order to acheive good results. Buck upp. No slackking!!`]]
- Riel
;`1:33 PM
{Monday, July 04, 2005 YY
4th July 2oo5`]]
Heyys.. Hmms. My newly put up blogg. I kinda like this skin. ^^, hmms. So yupps. i createdd a new one.. todayy's youth dayy. or somethingg liddat and so.. A shout out to my brotherr!! Happy Youth Dayy!! hehhs..
So yupps, hmms, i went to sleepover at the underwaterr world on fridayy with the I.T clubbers. Maddy went too. Was really funn. ^^, hmms, we learnt about the sharks, dugong and the dolphins too i thinkk.. hahahs. i got to touchh a pink dolphin...!!! We slept at the travelator where you can actually see the fishes clearly!! it was so cool!! I bunked next to Benavon, Emmeline and Sheila... We kinda slept for about 2 - 3 hours only cox of the nice conversation we hadd together. meaning, Benn, Emmeline, Sheila, me and Yan ning joined in too. Ohhs, and I got to touch a sharkk. A bamboo sharkk.. it was SOO nice.. I touched puffer fishhes too! they were like slimy.. and so it was smooth.. The sting rayys were one of my favourites tho!! it was so nice and the skin was like the puffer fishh. smooth but slimy.. i won't forgett that experience!! Was so muchh funn! Lalalala... *psycoticc* hahahas.
went to churchh yesterdayy. It was bible mania.. Woo. brother rendy was SOO nice!! He gave us free hello Kittys!! Only for the p6s tho!! Yipee!!! hahahs. There was left overr hello kittys and brother ying jie was like an auctionist. he was putting the hello kittys up for auction and suprisingly, ezra bought it for like, 3900 points. hohoho. so funny. hahahhas. ^^,
My cousin came to sleep overr at my house.. He's still here now.. We watched this show. i think it's called, 'the hostage' or somethingg. it has alot of killing scenes and all, but overall, it was really, really good. hehhs. right now, i don't feel like finishhing the reports. one for the anti-drugg one and the other for the IT clubb one. Why does benn have to askk me!! *moans* Oh wells, have to finishh by todayy!! I'm so deadd....
And if I lived a thousand years
You know, I never could explain
The way I lost my heart to you
That day.
But if destiny decided
I should look the other way
Then the world would never know
The greatest story ever told
And did I tell you that I love you tonight?
- Greatest Story Ever Told
Oliver James
Running after my dreams and wishes`]]
- Riel
;`4:38 PM