{Monday, January 30, 2006 YY
30th Jan 2006,,,]]
on a morning like this, i recieved alarming newss that silver died...
Mum: sweetie.. the vet just called to say that silver died...
it took me 10 seconds for it to sink in. with my mouth agaped. just open i laid in my bed staring at those gentle eyes of hers that was filled with sorrow.. that looked so tired. that were puffy due to the tears that she had cried.. i didnt know what to do then. it seemed as if the whole world started crashing and falling onto me... there i heard soft sobbs from my little brother. in a way, it might have been comfort to my ears, for then i knew that i wasnt all alone. it pained alot to know that the once strong silver. the one, my very first dog. had left the earth. it pained so much. agony surged in me... i wanted so much to wake up from this reality.. like as if it was a dream and yet... but no.. it was a harsh fact of life. the truth. reality. it wasnt a dream. it was real.. he was gone.. so never ending tears i cried. sorrows deep inside. it was tough.. really really tough...
dragging my now almost dead body to the car. the ride was dead silent. what was going through my mind? just two simple words. "dont cry." and yet i still did. those tears just gushed out the moment i saw his lifeless body. he seemed so peaceful. and yet i dontt know why i wasnt happy he passed away and stopped suffering.. maybe it's all because of my sel-fcentred being. wanting him to live on... and not exactly thinking of how much paiin he had gone through... he was so skinny, i cant imagine how much puking he had done.. the thought of him just makes my heart wrench.. the pain that surged through me seems so incessant. so maybe that's how incessant affliction feels. or is it not?
but through the pain, there will also be those people who will be there for you.. in this case, Gideon and benn was there. Ben said something at the start which i was so pissed with. it hurt so much and i sort of snapped at him, which i shouldnt have, so i'm really apologectic bout it. and i'm really, realy very glad that benn and gid was there for me when i needed someone to just be there.. =)) thanks you guys...
chinese new year's ending.. homework not yet touched. i knwo somehow i wont be able to finish it yet. but why arent i doing anything bout it? why do i feel like i dunt care bout all of my grades all of a sudden? i'm lost.. no idea why's all this happening. i'm terriffied of what would happen if i cant finish my assignments.. but yet.. i'm not doing anything about it.. i ought to die..
so far, chinese new year wasnt a pleasant one. first day was pretty sian. collect hong bao. see cousins.. then back home and stuff.. pretty sucky. boring same old routine i guess.. sleeping seems to be the most relaxing thing to do. started reading fics again. somehow stopped for quite some times. no wonder my english is failing me. hahas. oh wells. life seems to be a bore. nothing seems to be fun and happy at the moment. weekends seem to be the best. i love church.. i lvoe it tons. i love recess. and i love my bed...
someone, tell me this whole nightmare is going to end soon...
-Riel
in memory of Silver, [2002 - 2006]
;`9:43 PM
{Saturday, January 28, 2006 YY
28th Jan 2006`]]
so basically life just seems to still suck. no matter how hard i try to be postive... it still seems to suck... 27th jan 2006. a happy and sad day? went out with E shyen, fiona, Benn, Michele and E Mae. E shyen really dotes on E mae. she just pours unto E mae a sisterly love that can actually pass of as motherly love. she's so sweet to E mae. in the bus, she actually held E Mae's wallet for her. and bought her lunch. and instructed her to finish her food and EAT her veggies... it's just really sweet.. =)) we missed cheaper by the doaen 2. so we just had a C.C gathering thing at yoshinoya. i really wanted to watch i not stupid 2. but E shyen didnt want to. so we didnt. Fiona, E Mae and E Shyen ended up watching cheaper by the dozen at a later time slot. and i got danielle's and sherlynn's present hopefully they'll like it... hrmms, service was really good. why god's silent? it's because he's letting us walk a journey of faith to bring us to a new level with him. and also, to personally encounter him. i guess, i really needed that sermon. it really was like hitting jackpot.. so that was the whole happy part.
Sad part? i lost 2 dogs in a day? how can that be possible?! Titus had t be given away. reason being.. too many dogs. of all dogs.. why him? i didnt even know!! i didnt even say goodbye! i mean like!!!! i wasnt prepared. i didnt even get to catch a glimpse of him before he left. i.. sighh. i miss him tons!! arghh!! Silver has kidney failure. Dogs do NOT have kidney transplant.. he's dying.. he's...sighh. what can i say? it's like. so heart shattering. so heart wrenching. i think i'm going to breakdown. why now? he's in the hospital now.. and he's not doing any better. he's jsut same old same old. vommitting and stuff. i dunt want to put him to sleep. but he's sufferingg so much.. this sucks alot. this really sucks.. =((
chinese new year's tmrw. there's holidays. but with holidays. there's homework too. a truckload of homework. i dunt even know how i can finish it. seeing as i'm not really in the mood to do anything but sleep. i dunt even want to go for chinese new year celebration. i just wanna sleep. sighh. this thing sucks. i hate school. oh wells...
Today's 28th Jan.. and it's sherlynn's and danielle's brithday so just wanted to say a VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU TWO!! may the lord bless you guys. and may the both of you grow closer to god like never be for. =)) wishing you two all the best in life. =))...
i watched bleach 63 and 64 today. super cool. tho there wasnt much fighting. and 63 was mostly like a recap.. but still nice. 64 was quite cool. hahas.. kurosaki's dad is super funny hahas.. =)) guess i hafta take life a slowly. walk step by step. since the road now's so rugged and absolutely unstable. =)) all the best to me! hehhs.
my world's just turning upside down.. this isnt how it's supposed to be... is it?
-Riel
;`9:32 PM
{Wednesday, January 25, 2006 YY
25th Jan 2006,,]
what happens when the supports in you start to crumble? what happens if you suddenly feel so tired and need to sleep till forever? what happens if you feel like crying yet there's no tears that's willing to seep out? what if you feel like closing your eyes and dream of the end of the rainbow and yet reality's holding you back? what happens when one day your shield of strength that suports you fades away? will you give up on yourself? what happens if life turns and makes a u-turn? changes your days to havoc? uplifted sorrows turn to drained, tiredness, lost, uncertainty, angst.. so many questions. all of which i know none and dunt even want to know. i'm slipping away from this earth. i'm tired. i need sleep. my brain's not functioning. i'm mentally drained. i admit. i'm not doing good in my studies. i feel helpless. i feel stupid. i dunt want to see that look of disappointment in my parent's eyes. i want to see the i'm so proud of you look. i dunt want to be an extra burden to them. i want to show them i'm capable of doing good. acheiving results. yet why cant i? everything's just crumbling.. my aim... everything. i dunt know how to ask my parents to sign my HCL paper. i got border line. i nearly failed. i... i dunno what to do now.. i'm absolutely disappointed in myself... i cant afford to fail. i dunt want to. i cannot. i jsut cant.. i need those grades. i need it.. i.. just forget. this isnt helping... history test is tmrw. hopefully i'm ready i pray i am. only studied when i was talking to dan cox he was helping me with it. LOL. then later couldnt be bothered. i know. wanting to get good grades and yet not studying. impossible to do well. so i hafta buck up. yet procrastinating suddenly seems so normal for me. i just dutn feel like studying. it's stupid. utterly dumb i know.. sighh... life's just really so sickening now... i feel really stupiid. i think i'm psycotic. rawrr... =
[theworldseemstocrumbletopieces.letmefadeaway] . letthesunneverrisetothehorizon.iduntwantdaytobreak...
-Riel
;`10:37 PM
{Tuesday, January 24, 2006 YY
24th Jan 2006,,]]
so here i am yet again staring at the same boxed up flat screen doing nothing much. studying just seem not the least bit interested for now. mentally drained. am i? i choose not to believe so. i'm just lethargic. =)) hrmms, went to watch cheaper by a dozen 2. it's really good. the ride to westmall was crappy. i missed the bus stop twice. one of which i stopped 4 bus stops away and had to walk to the opposite side and then missed it again and alighted after the bus stop and had to walk all the way to westmall. in total, i just wasted an hour plus to get to westmall. -.- stupid. the guy, eliot is cute and.. err hot? surprisingly, my bro actually says he doesnt look so bad and is quite hot. LOL unexpectedd. i love the show!! hrmms, had to do math hw. did it while using the comp. asked about 5 people and got confusedd. hahas. i hate math. just not my thing. and never will it be.trying to learn ting xie but apparently, nothing seems to be going into my head. maybe it's because i'm not even looking at my textbook. i think transition blues just started for me. LOL or maybe it's just me, me... this whole week's been quite hectic.. going out with my kor has been much of a relaxation. really needed it i think. ballet's tmrw and i got into modern! YAY! i dunt have a hair net. freak. oh wells, when i die, i die. ballet's surprisingly quite nice. saw Cheryl today. abit unprepared. hahas. awkward yet i think sh'es cute.like she has that innocent look. very guai! =)) hahas... lights out. time for me to hhead back into the comfort of my bed when i dig myself into a burrow and sleep there hoping the night would last as long as possible..
sadly and painfully lethargic.
- Riel
;`10:02 PM
{Sunday, January 22, 2006 YY
22nd Jan 2006`]]
hrmms, so i'm sitting and staring at my computer screen. there's something wrong with me today. i'm not me. just feeling pretty weird. i'm not happy. nothing happened. i'm just empty. and stonedd. nothing seems to be going through my head. just spacing like i always do. yet somehow it's different. it feels different... just so very different.
did all my work already. english was a bore. finished it at the speed of light. didnt check much. couldnt really be bothered. it's stupiid. life science was easy. just read the micro pipette numerical numbers. and stuff. then it was down to zhou ji. spent almost an hour searching for a chinese proverb and then later had a very difficult time describing my dad. not saying it was hard because no words describe him. it was merely because nothing seemed to be going into my brain. it's empty, page blank... feeling lethargic, restless... just so not me. playing corrine may's if i kissed you. somehow it enlightens my mood for a while and then it dies off... being stupid. this isnt working. rawrr...
gidd tagged me and so i'm forced to do that thing which is somewhat... -.- but i'll do it nevertheless..
Your Ideal Partner:
1. Male Or Female
2. 8 Requirements of ur ideal partner
3. Tag 8 other people and notify that they are tagged.
1. Male/Female
It's probably quite obvious. - Male.
2. The characteristics.
1. Has to love god. [it's a MUST]
2. He must be caring. and trustable. =))
3. Understands me and is sensitive to how i feel.
4. Gives me advice that i need and should heed.
5. Must humor me and just have that mysterious aura. -unpredictabilty. =))
6. Listens to my incesasnt remblings and takes in all my nonsense. - that means he must be patient. =))
7. He must be sweet. romantic. and blahhs, you get the idea.
8. When HUGGing ME, he makes me feel like never before. ,makes me feel that i am loved! that i'm safe in his arms[give me a sense of security]. - that kind of feeling that's unbelievably nice. and so surreal! LOL. =))
8 people Tagged (this is even harder since benn and gidd already asked 16 people. =)))
1. Moses
2. David
3. Benedict
4. Daniel
5. Tiffany
6. Sherlynn
7. Benjamin
8. Vincent
P.S: they're mostly all guys cox they're no more girls to tagg RAWWR..
empty, page blank
- Riel
;`3:11 PM
{Friday, January 20, 2006 YY
20th Jan 2006`]]
it's a friday, the third week of 2006 is drawing to the end of closure. it's really fast.. time to get extra sleep and more time on the comp. =)) school's been quite okay. classes are usually very boring. and so far, i dont have a favourite subject that i look foward to. since i dislike all the subjects. hahas. my love for writing's still pretty much okay. lit's pretty much stupid. with that darn durin story which is interseting yet stupiid. not making any sense. people in class are nice. especially the scholars. they're mostly the people i talk to besides mergi, elena, eva, jia xiu, amelia and chloe. we converse in chinese. it's fun =)) they're chinese is really good. admire them. hehhs. not being racist or anything but 1M indians somehow seem to stuck up and stuff. just pretty much irritated by the fact that vandana degraded me is that word appropriate for use? so anywyas, she was like looking at my math worksheet 2 marks and seeing that she got higher and stuff. [no idea what she got. couldnt be bothered to find out.] she was like saying to her friend's in front of my face. "LOOK! she got 258 same as me! and she got lower! SEE SEE SEE!" i mean like.. rawwrr i felt damn stupid for a moment! -.- i pretty much enjoy talking to the scholars. =)) they were on the teens mag. klarissa, Anna Belle and euodia? sorry. Euodia or however you spell her name isnt in 1M so i dunt know. =)) well apparently the question was like, what will you do if your bf was down or something. hahas apparently belle has experience and basically i was questioning her and ying yen and klarissa would help anna belle answer. pretty funny. =)) and i quote them. "[they were speaking in chinese] girls from mgs primary are innocent. cox they're all in an all girls school... no boys." it was hilarious. hahas.. life science was like the most fun subject today! =)) cox the teacher lost her voice. hehhs. =))
sec school life is pretty much quite hectic. cross is actually tiring and yet fun and the sense of accomplishment after running 4km is like GREAT! and dance... ballet's okay. not my type of thing but still pretty interesting i guess.. =)) homework's quite reasonable.. except for the 13 pages of english comprehenshion and summary crapp that i have to do today. -.- values ed was nice. i did the personality test and this is the results. pretty amazing how just by answering a set of questions, you can get your persoanlity written striaght down on the report. like.. wow. unbelievable. it's somewhat quite accurate...
Advisor
Counselors impress most people with their warmth, sympathy and understanding. They possess a casual kind of poise in most social situations. Many people will come to them because Counselors are seen as good listeners. They are very demonstrative and their emotions are clear to those around them. They will not attempt to force their ideas on others; in fact, they may be too indirect in expressing feelings or issuing orders. They tend to take criticism of their work as a personal affront. They can be overly tolerant and patient with those who are non-producers in the workplace. They are true peacekeepers and will work to maintain peace in every circumstance.Counselors possess the potential to love everyone without expecting much in return. They love to talk to and about people; they want social intimacy with everyone they meet. They may have difficulty being honest about things if there is a fear that there will be devastating effects to a relationship, as relationships are extremely important to them. Counselors are great motivators and tell people "you can do it". They are loving and exhibit mercy, compassion, and empathy to others.
Counselors prefer to deal with people on a personal, intimate basis in a low-pressure situation. They will take advantage of every moment allotted until the job gets done. They need personal attention and compliments for assignments well done. While Counselors are very stable, they are also flexible and can fit into almost any environment. They are seen as friendly, and accepting of others. Counselors are family oriented - they work toward stability in these relationships. Because their orientation to tasks is low and their people orientation is high, they may have trouble following through on completion of tasks. They get involved in talking about what they want to do!
Emotions:
Empathetic, personable
Motivating Goals:
To maintain friendships
Evaluates Others By:
Positive acceptance; looks for the good in people
Influences Others By:
Personal relationships; empathy, warmth, compassion
Value to the Team:
Enthusiastic, people-oriented, peace-keeper, optimistic
Reaction to Pressure:
Overly flexible and tolerant
Greatest Fears:
Social rejection;<---[this isnt correct i think. it's like.. -.-] being accused of causing harm
Areas for Improvement:
Take initiative, set realistic deadlines, develop a sense of urgency, don't just talk - do it!<--[in certain ways.. maybe. for example, when i say i dunt wanna use the word 'shit', i sorta still do. not so very often but yes. =)) i just used it anyways.]
May Overuse:
Tolerance; indirect approach
so in other words, this report's accurate. besides the two weird points. but heck, it's just abit freaky. you get what i mean..
okay, this might be a long post, i'll try to shorten it to the best of my abilty. okay so anywyas, birthday parties.
Benn's:
really, really, really fun! =)) ate barbequed food and made a campfire. burnt the grass and now benn's garden has a beautifully black patch =)) artisically beautiful. then we talked alot. benedict called benn and mergi became his conscience. asking him weirdo questions. i sw a husky. it looked so HOT! like super cute and sexay and.. LALAs. i just love huskies. and kelly, faith and mergi stodd on the square box, initially used for ben's bike jumping thing. whatever it is. then... they were like.. "welcome to cold storage.. thank you for your services." super crazy. we sang lotsa funny songs. like the green frog song and the campfire. calamine song. worship song. and stuff. hahas.. slept over at benn's and ignored the alarm clock. missed cross trng. hahas. overall it was great. loved it. WEE.
Mine:
ate at pine's. the table was super noisy. uncle jason said so. i knew he would tell me that! -.- LOL. i just went like. "orhhs." what else to say.. hahas.. abby told ppl the mushroom joke. it was funny and yet terribly sick!! -.- joelle is psycho about it. we ate and ate. i ate alot. no one wanted to eat. they talked so much and ate so little. i think i told them to shut up cox they were too loud like about 3 to 5 times. LOL. benn wore a dress for me! she looked nice as usual. very sweet. and you know what? BENN , XUE ER, SHANICE AND MERGI GOT ME THE ONE TREE HILL SEASON ONE!! WEEEE!!! i screamed when i opened it. hahas. no wonder david said i'd freak on that night. =)) so anyways, got amazingly nice gifts. had dinner with benn and brian the day after. ate at Black canyon. talked alot. went home. got presents! the twins got me a myuk wallet! i absolutely love it! hahas.. i stare at it too much! haahass.. anywyas.. want to thank everyone for all those presents...
AND TO CHLOE, KELLY, JARED, E SHYEN!!! HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!! =))
church and macs was pretty fun. it's nice to see joelle blush like a tomato. good one grace! =)) chang tng absolutely rock. hahas. =)) she's a nice pal who indirectly tells someone about her crush on him. so FUNNY! very cute tho. ahhas. and i still find it hilarious! WEE...
i miss the dec hols when i used to sleep at 1 plus and chat with all my friends. hahas. dan is included he kills my boredom. WEE. and so does benn tho i think seeing her is so much better! hahas..
moving with the times..
- Riel
;`8:34 PM
{Wednesday, January 11, 2006 YY
11th jan 2006`]]
so it'll basically be a short blogg since i'm being rushed to get off the computer for some unknown reason. so basically, saturday was the day i served. [ignyte launch] it was pretty darned good. and FUEL was quite okay.. the section is HUGE. it just is!! 1M's been going quite stable. merrilyn ended up being class chairman and klarrisa, vice chair... CCA registration is on firday, also, benn's birthday!! so i want to say in advance, HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! then there's xue er and gabriel pua and my dad. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY YOU THREE!! tuesday was a rather hectic day. went to xue er's lunch party thing. ate NYDC. it was really good. =)) went shopping for presents. foot was so sore. went to perlini silver about 3 times. and got splashed by road water unfortunately. it was a sad sad thing. the van drove so fast! it was super sickening. took neos with benn, xue er, peri ru and shanice. later benn went away and we continued to take another neos. was fun. hahas crazily messy but fun! =)) had dinner with like ten of my very good friends that night. [you should know who you are] ate food. ALOT of food. basically, most of them ate so little! and i didnt want to waste food so i ate everything. it totally sucked. but at least the food was good. =)) got presents! many many presents! was super surprised to get the one tree hill dvd from benn, xue er, mergi and shanice!! really, it's like a dream come true! i really wanted it. and david was sorta right. i didnt freak out but i was super happy. i started screaming! hehhs. sherr couldnt come to the dinner. rather sad larrhs since she couldnt be there. oh wells. school's been rather hectic. physics is the most boring subject ever!! and the higher chinese teacher is according to mergi, 'dao' hahahas. oh wells, hopefully i dunt fail higher chinese and get demoted to express chinese. =)) after school, had MGignyte thing. it was really good. in a sense and yupps, it certainly was quite fun. =)) went over to benn's house to study. found out she was class chair for 1e. not surprising though. sherr's vice chair. which is also good larrhs! =)) i helped benn do the class plan as i didnt exactly technically had homework today. =)) then went out for dinner with benn and brian. Hrmms, the penang place was close so we went to black canyon. =)) food there was pretty nice. loved all my presents. i wanna say a Thank you to everyone who bothered to write a testimonial or send me an sms or even give me a pressent!! it's really appreciated! =))
and on friday, it'll be benn's birthday. wonder what will happen. =X hrmms, will blogg bout it after that. and serving on ignyte launch was actually nice. =)) basically i gave out sermon notes thing. it's pretty cool. i smiled alot. =)) hahas, and i saw my bro dance! which seemed rather cool. bwahhaas. =))
i turned 13. i love my presents! i'm happy. flying to the sky.
-Riel
;`8:53 PM
{Friday, January 06, 2006 YY
6th Jan 2oo6`]] -
so it's almost the end of the first week of the new year. so many many things happened that i believe have made my week so wonderful. and yet slightly disturbing or upsetting? my birthday's in 5 days. =)) really soon. by then i would be 13. i'm still not very comfortable being a sec 1. it feels weird. so out of place. people staring at you weirdly because you're like a P1 kid to them... the feeling's extravagently uncomfortable. i hate to be new. it feels as if you went back to being a P1 kid. small and inexperienced. which is sort of true... and yet at the same time, not exactly..
the first day of school was rather slack. i'm in 1M. and i'm possibly the only 6.2 '05 in that class. pathetic is the only word to describe it. Merrilyn and eva and elena's in my class. through camp, i guess we became closer. and through camp, 1M also became slightly closer, bonded as a class. remembering names would be a chore but i guess it's unavoidable. =)) Benn's in 1E with Xue Er and Michele. Sherlynn's in 1E too. i find it sickeningly unfair. why's there quite a number of 6.2 '05 in 1E and there's only a pathetic me in 1M? and all i can do is accept it and move on. i mean, i guess i dunt mind at all but having your old friends in your new class would have made it seem more comforting... our teacher's miss gan. she's a pretty nice teacher. in her middle thirties or fourties?? probably around there. she does photography and is rather sociable with us. Mrs raymond ong, our secondary school discipline mistress is also our co-form teacher. she's also nice. and she reminds me of one of the teachers in harry potter. ther nurse i think?? as quoted from miss gan "MG primary girls in 1M is a minority." our class is extremly big. not the biggest but it's possibly bigger than normal sec school classes. we have about 35 students and out of 35 only about 10 or less are from MG primary. which is a really sad fact. not one that i would be happy about. i guess it would have benn nicer if we had at least half. =)) and i just realised that Vera could have appealed for our school. quite a number of my classmates have an aggregate of below our cut off point. is that what it's called?? okay, so i'll just relate what i had been doing in Sec 1 camp. =))
Camp on the first day was fun i guess. back then, we were not as enthusiastic nor were we close. all of us, 1M were quite separated. some in pairs. some in triplets and the rest in small groups or sadly, alone. we played quite a number of games that required unity. it was quite fun i guess. we played double whacko. and mergii was super blurr. many people called my name and she was liek huh? oh oh.. and then i got whacked. -.- then we played jacob's ladder against 1E. we won! WEE! but mergii and i didnt get to play. it was quite upsetting?? like "what?! why didnt we get to play?1" then at a point of time during the game 1E was cheering for their class and every girl that was jacob's laddering, they would go "1E! 1E! 1E!" and so i was blurr and stupid and thought that they were like going "Wanyi!Wanyi!Wanyi!" and because they said 1E every time a girl passed, i was like wondering aloud... "Why are they calling every girl wanyi?" and mergii was like, "it's 1E!!!" and i went like "OHHH!!" LOL for a moment i thought i was seriously blurr. LOL. the aim of the next game was to get from point 1 to point 6. at each point there would be puzzle pieces and we had to go from point 1 to point 6 to collect the puzzle pieces. we were given a time limit of 10 minutes and the only way that we could get from points 1 to 6 was to stand on chairs. everyone had a chair and we had to pass chairs to the front so that we could move. it was basically the same as the game we played in fuego '04 pre-teen // DL camp. but since we were playing it with different people, it was a new experience. i guess, it was possibly the most fun game of the day. Later we moved on to play another game. we had to put an uncooked spagetthi stick and using the stick we had to transfer the rubberbands from one end of the line to the other. we were competing against 1E, sadly. and they won by like 4 or 5 rubberbands? it didnt actually matter 'cause we had fun. Mergii kept laughing at the rubberbands all kept dropping. hilarious in a sense i too kept laughin and my stick kept breaking in my mouth. also, during reflections, one of our classmate said the 'model' answer. it was hilarious and all of us 1M-ers were all clapping and mergii, eva, elena and me were like whispering. "model ansnwer!!" then after this, i'm not sure what we played.the games will not be in order amymore for i cant exactly remember on which day we had played the games. so anyways, if my memory had not failed me. we played this blind fold game where we had to partner a friend and one of us had to be blindfolded. later, one of us had to take out a shoe and the girl who wasnt blindfolde would have to direct the one blindfolded to the shoe. if we had picked up the wrong shoe, we would have to go back to the start. as i was the one being blindfolded and my brother had a very sad case with the fence after being blindfolded, i was really hoping that i wouldnt have to bang anything that would damage my face. hahas. =)) after this, we had to be blindfolded again and we had to stand in a line, passing around what seemed to smell like crapp [shit] or vomit. it was news paper dunked with water? not too sure but it smelt gross and we had to pass the pile of dung from one end to the other for 5 minutes? it was terrible and yet quite crazy at the same time. later we played this game where we had to be grouped into 10 and later, we had to form a circle. what was difficult was that we had to cross our arms and we couldnt hold the person that was standing next to us. sadly, our group was the last to untangle ourselves. it was funny. then later we played many other games in the court. we had like this one where 5 girls had to go read the tongue twister thing. then later 5 had to skip together at the same time. and 5 had to turn 10 rounds before using a ball to throw at a metal can. i was one of them and i missed. embarrassing but heck! i was dizzy. out of 5, only one of them managed to knock the can down. =)) hahas. then we had lunch or something the food werent too bad. it was edible i guess... then i think the event that i would never forget was during the bathing time! THERE WAS A COCKROACH IN THE TOILET! super freaky! and i had to bathe in the toilet where the cockroach came from. miss sim helped us get rid of it by using the hose to flush the cockroach down the drain. on the second day, i had to bathe in that specific toilet. was super scared. i mean imagine the cockroach climbing back up the drain.. ahhh!! hrmms, then i cant remember what we did already. i know there were like 2 worship times a day. quite short compared to passion // ignyte to be in a few hours time. not one was jumping. besides the PBs // SLs of course. sad. the, dinner was horrible. the spagetthi tasted super gross. not nice!! =(( after dinner we watched mighty ducks one! i love that show! vincent a larruso is uber cute! LALALAs.. okay, he's adam banks in the show. =)) then hrmms, we had a CCA briefinf thing by our PE head of department, Mr ong.. i guess i'm taking dance as CCA. =)) it'll be pretty fun! and jennis and michele should be taking dance. though there would be candice. but it doesnt matter anymore. 'cause i learnt things in infusedd '05!! and i shall just yarrhs, start afresh. just give up that dislike for her. and just be friendly. and SMILE! =)) sleeping on the cold hard floor was not much of a choice. my sleeping bag was just like a piece of thin shit separating me from the floor. so basically, i was sleeping on the floor whereas the other campers were sleeping on nice soft sleeping bags. and the temperature didnt help either, it was really freezing cold out there and my sleeping bag was really thin!! waking up the next day was a chore! we had morning exercises! running one round around the court was tiring. i'm super unfit!! that's seriously depressing to know. and during the whole day, we played sports. it was basically for people to show off their talent so that they could get asked whether they were interested to go for try outs on the try out dates. i practically sucked at every sport. i cant play squash. nor can i play softball. i cant even catch the ball with the glove thing! -.- i cant play squash. i mean i just can't. i suck! i'm not physically inclined. i'm just unfit! for captain's ball, i didnt manage to play as the sole of my shoe came off. it was dumb considering the fact that it fell off at the wrong time. i was hoping it would last till camp since the inner side of the shoe was like breaking into crumbs. it's so powderyy. time to get new shoes.. later, for lunch, the food was better. i sort of forgot what we ate. later, after lunch, we played treasure hunt. we had to search for objects and after that, we had to use the objects to make a house that could fit five people! =)) we won second! i think our house seriously look nice. =)) but i didnt do it. i was out with mergii, carrying the brown container thing filled with water for mrs choo?? later we had to bring it back because they later realised that the water inside it was too much and that they could just boil some water and use the kettle to transport the boiled water over. so mergii and i went to some big seniors to borrow the trolley thing and we had to carry the container back. for the reflections for the reasure hunt. we had another model answer again. by geroh! it was super funny and mergii and i kept laughing. my eyes even turned watery. and during the wait for our turn to go find the object, me mergii and eva was playing the sailor went to sea sea sea... the game was uber fun and funny! =)) later, we had dinner and practised the skit for campfire. i loved the skit. it turned out quite good i guess. i loved it tons. it was hilariously funny and i enjoyed every bit of it. =)) so basically, our skit was about a chef having 7 groups of 5 fruits. the bananas were the class jokers. the apples were the suck ups[teacher's pet and blahhs]. the salad dressings were the bimbos. the pears were the nerds. the oranges were the sporty people. the grapes were the shy and quiet people. and the rambutans were the mean people. all of us thought we were best and later, we had a fight and the chef stopped us. and using the theme verse, 1 corinthians 12:12 we ended the skit with the chef stirring us all and mixing us to become a fruit salad!! then later we sang our theme song, we're god's family! and we did our 1M cheer!! it was raining so we only could have a campfire at the last 10 minutes or longer. still, it was nice. and there were many, many stars in the night sky!! later we had supper and went to sleep?? ohhs, and before dinner, i had to bathe in the cockroach toilet again! it was horrific.. talk about harrowing! =)) i slept next to benn for the whole 2 days! it's good that she's from 1E. imagine if she were from another class, i wouldnt be able to sleep next to her. and we wouldnt be able to converse about things... =)) on the last day, we didnt exactly do much. not many games i guess... we played duck duck goose and our morning exercise game we playedd the bombing game. i was super tired.. we had worship in the morning and i was on the verge of dozing off. =X but we did jump. i think me and mergii.. and eva and like only the SLs were jumping. MG sec one people not enthu enough 'bout christ! =(( okay, so anyways, our SLs really were very nice people. like rebekah, she's very bubbly, very enthu. in a way, her character just seemed really cute!! =)) and her face makes her look cute? i dunno what or how to describe her. she just is really nice! and sandra's the more soft spoken demure one.. magdelene's.. not too sure how to describe her. she's nice. more outspoken? she's kinda pretty. =)) overall, rebekah was the friendliest i guess. i made new friends too! from 1M, there was Jia Xiu. and Amelia, Chloe, Nadine.. Alexandria... actually, practically the whole class. and from 1T, i made a new friend called Jennis! =)) my CCA friend to be. XD house meeting was boring.. basically nothing much! through this camp, i think it helped change my impression of the class. i guess it did help! alot.. =)) ohhs, and before i forget, i'm really gladd that 1M won most outstanding class award!! WEE! i'm so proud of our class.. and alex, me and avanti cleaned the toilet together!! stupid. but quite fun. LOL. =)) i shall end with a 1M cheer!! =))
cheer 4: [Mergii loves this! and so do i! =))]
Brr... it's cold in here!
There must be some 1M in the atmosphere!
I said brr... it's cold in here!
There must be some 1M in the atmosphere!
I said Oheeoheeoh. Mmmm...
Oheeoheeoh. Mmmm...
Go.. 1M!!
*screams*
i'm in 1Madness. we rockk the world. =))
-Riel
;`8:46 PM
{Sunday, January 01, 2006 YY
1st Jan 2006`]]
okay, so it's the first day of the new year.. days just go by too fast... anyways, wishing everyone a BLESSED NEW YEAR!! the day after tomorrow is the day we all head for school. it's so soon that even i, cannot comprehend how unready i am... ahh, heck. let's worry about it on the day itself...
so the wallace and groumit outing was nice. i went to ezra's house with benn for fun i guess.. met faith at his house too and headed to plaza sing together. it was pretty amusing hearing that gidd missed the bus stop and ezra had to run to the next stop and gidd wasnt there and when we got to plaza sing, gidd was told us that he waited at the next bus stop for half an hour pacing about and ezra didnt turn up! hahas. the show was nice? pretty lame i guess. ending was super stupid. hahas.. "may contain nuts." LOL. really hilarious... we sat at the row, D. uber near. my neck was aching. not nice!! Pre ignyte launch was rather nice. the tarzan game was pretty dumb. i mean, couldnt we have played a nicer game at least? hahas. sermon was rather nice.. god's presence was really evident. and those things that he spoke to me about... i wont ever forget. hahas. =)) found out which cell i'm in already. i'm still pretty much with the same old cell except for the additional sec 2 peeps. i've got like, 4 cell leaders. sister Li min, sister alicia, sister Sherry and brother zhicao?? not too sure what his name was. =)) part of me somehow still wishes for bro brian to be my cell leader. and even if it's all comfirmed, and it'll never be changed. somewhere deep in me, i know that i hope that he was one of my cell leaders... oh wells... the trip from plaza sing to church was just something i thank god for. i'm really glad i set next to benn because i really feel that if i hadnt had that 'talk' i would have still been thinking bout loads of stuffs... it's relly been great having her around. =))
watchnight was one of the days where i feel like forgetting but i know i wont. i didnt take ocmmunion with my cell because i was late. all my fault i guess. though i really would want to blame my elder brother but it's mine i guess.. it totally is. if i didnt get my hair trimmed for school, i wouldnt have reched home late and if i didnt reach home late, my brother would have finished bathing earlier. and if he had finished earlier, i wouldnt be late for communion. and i was.. pretty upsetting i guess. went to macs after that to eat dinner and talk to my cell and stuff. half way while we were geling, i was called home. for a stupid reason that up till now, i still think it's so stupid. seriously, it just ruined my whole night. and i felt like i was going to breakdown and cry. and i nearly missed watchnight because of that stupid reason. it just really pisses me off how i wasnt even involved in that thing and yet i have to be there to take in whatever that is happening. i mean i could have been in church. i just.. feel that it was so stupid for me to have had to go home for that.
today was basically a boring ol' day. i woke up and went for lunch. gobbled up all my food. because my brother had to go to church. later i went home to start wrapping my school books and prepare for school... i wonder how i'm going to carry all the books to school man! there's like a whole truck load of books!! -.- then later i went over to my aunt's house. from dad's side.. spent my time listening to convos and watching tv. didnt exactly talk unless spoken to. hhahas. but that's me. anti-social. =)) the chinese show i watched was nice. only interested in the sad part. the rest were real stupid. =)) watching that show, it gave me lotsa inspiration. hahas. =)) still i love the sad part. just showed how you could fall for someone in a short period of time. and then, with a flick of a finger, you could just lose that someone... right before your eyes.... okays, so anyways, dramatic storyline. possibly predictable and yet it was still rather nice. =))
so, i guess i'll end 2005 and start 2006 with a testimony. =)) is it testimony like?? not too sure. but anyways, here goes... on the night of pre launch, i was worshipping the lord and it was then that pastor dom said that the year was ending and it was our last chance to fulfil our faith promise. or our building fund.. [i think it was pastor dom] and i remembered that mine wasnt fulfilled yet. and so i was thinking to myself... where do i get that much money in a day?? [the amount is quite large to me at least] and so i prayed to him for a miracle that somehow i'd be able to get that amount of money. i seriously had no idea how to get that much money since christmas was just about over and i only had a couple of bucks left... then the next day, while i was out lunching with my cousins, my aunt, [mother's cousin-in-law. =))] appraoched me and gave me a red packet. she said that it was to reward me for my good results and i was shocked, and surprised. i didnt know how much the red packet contained. and i didnt think that the sum of money would be able to help me fulfill my faith promise.. or building fund. [whatever it is called.] amazingly, when i opened the red packet. i discovered that it was more than enough... and i was able to fulfill my faith promise that day... WEE.. praise the lord. =)) i'm really very glad that my prayer was answered. i just prayed for a miracle. i didnt expect that it'll come true. i just... [too lost for wordds!! =))] hrmms, so anyways, i really thank the lord. and my faith in him just became strongerr... lalalas.. =)) // end of testimony!! -
my birthday's coming soon!! =)) i'm going to turn 13 soon.. it's so fast.. and i know all those jan kidds like benn, e shyen, xue er, sherlynn.. will be celebrating with me! =)) hahas..
it's the new year. time to face reality.
- Riel
;`10:17 PM