{Saturday, October 28, 2006 YY
and where did i go wrong?
what exactly happened?
how did things turn out this way?
i wonder.
the week's been a mess, kind of. but i'm hoping tomorrow will be one of the better days...
it's over now
- Riel
;`12:37 AM
{Thursday, October 26, 2006 YY
and today was well, quite okay i guess. i think somewhere along the way, i became 'drunk' and high and flushed. remind me never to drink anything with that stupid whatever they put inside the jackson blush thing. =X
and on the way to school i heard something really amusing.it started off like this..
CL: So how? Yesterday....
C: My father was very angry! he wanted to KILL the dog!
CL: HUH? how can?!
C: My father hates dogs.
CL: What? Why he hate dogs?
C: Dunno larr. Born like that la!!
CL: Really arhhs?
C: YA! his whole family all born like that!! They all hate dogs...
Funny. ((:
industrial visit was quite cool. i didnt know the kitchen was so HUGE. and the freezer is like the coolest! ((: and at KAP, i made a fool of myself. HAHA. and i saw weird people who occassionally kept looking at me. it was BAD. really bad, because that person was none other then sell prawn and a couple of friends that i noticed at IC during our study trips. =X tskk.
came down with a fever at 8, 9 plus maybe then it went down by 11 plus. ((: thank god. OH and EMERGE is coming up.and the poster is really nice and creative. with the train tracks and the light. innovative. SUPER NICE ((: and i cant wait because it's an awesome time to be empowered by god and impacted and just being changed once again. hopefully, it'll be even greater than infusedd and that keith's mouth wont be so sui again! :P haha.
it's late. and certain people's not asleep yet! RAWRR. i'm not lying for you. ((: but i wont rat on you either.
funny i get that feeling all of a sudden when i'm missing you.
the universe going by;
- Riel
;`12:26 AM
{Saturday, October 21, 2006 YY
and the results are out, the exams finally over, the year coming to an end..
and just when you finally stepped between that invisible line that separates you from them, the year's ending, making it not much of a difference any longer. and some people may think that i just wasted my effort but maybe their wrong, because i gained something they never did. and that was that smile. just one smile and i felt i achiieved something so great. something they cant ever fathom until they see that genuine smile. that was actuallly filled with warmth, acceptance, happiness, and most of all, hope. funny how things really do change once people take the initiative...
and then there's the results. it jsut wasnt what you call great or wonderful. but i guess it wouldnt be fair to anyone, or to myself if i said i didnt dow ell because i did okay. it just wasnt what i was aiming to get, what i hoped to get. it jsut wasnt whawt i think i could have achieved.. but it's too late for regrets and sadness and depressing thoughts are not necessary becauses i think that god was really there with me every step of the way...
and today was fun. at macs and at botanical gardens ((: with just the 4 of us ((: and dee and i have deduced that when the sun's setting and stuff, the place looks really romantic and good for a walk in the park with a DATE! ((: hehhs. it was really fun. and just calming. much needed after a weeks of bleahness. Macs was nonsense. playing all sorts of games with our hands ((: that was fun. and the so called highlight was gabriel pua being his usual crazy self with him and his usual antics. See, that's one thing i'll miss when the p6s come and the sec 2s go.
((: oh wells. today was fun. really really fun. but there was a constant missing. at least the games took my mind off it ((: for a while. ... .
invisible line, let me break that.
- Riel
;`10:48 PM
{Tuesday, October 10, 2006 YY
and everything's really just coming to an end. finally.
and it's right at this precise moment that i have no idea why i'm still up and using the computer. ..
Papers throughout these few days were quite tough and yet i thank god for being there with me thoughout. and though i did not manage to finish up today's paper 2, i guess i tried my best. i really did and whatever the results, i guess i should be contented. ((: shouldnt i? and i've never felt his presence ever so strong just beside me through all of the papers that i've sat.
and he never failed to assure me that he'll always be there to guide me. ((:
it's late and i ought to sleep. and yet i find it hard to get up and just go. i'm really hungry, starving to be exact. ): but there isnt anything for me to eat. and suddenly it's like being swamped with all the emotions, both bad and good and funny how i just cant and dont feel like sleeping because i'm thinking really hard.. but that's not the main reason.
it's probably because;
i miss you.
funny, i really do.
and i dont know why.. ..
=/
finishing the race
- Riel
;`11:51 PM
{Friday, October 06, 2006 YY
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and it's almost an end to the exams, an end to the I.C trips, an end to the year, to seeing you, an end to almost everything. and all of a sudden i dont want to leave 1M anymore..
aand geog was horrible. i hate geog. i screwed my whole of question 2. well, kind off. and i feel HORRIBLE!!! but i guess i tried my best and i just have to let god do the rest (: History was really scary. i spent a little too much time on SBQ and i rushed question 19 in 5, 10 minutes. I AM SOOOOOOO DEAD!! ): I love langarts paper one ((: stars. you. her. me. we. ((:
it's friday, and i'm destressing, so i shall do the quiz-survey thing.
01) single, taken or crushing?
single. crushing just aint the word ((:
02) are you happy with your life now?
mmms, yeah. i think so ((:
03)when you meet the right person,do you fall in love with him fast?
i wouldnt know if he's the right person would i? i guess, i kind of fall quite fast but it lasts for a very long time, till something drastic happens or something hehhs. ((:
04)have you ever had your heartbroken?
yeah, it sucked a whole lot.
05)do you believe there are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?
Nope, i'm totally against that.
06)would you take someone back if he cheats on you?
i highly doubt so. it would hurt too much and the trust and security just wouldnt be there anymore and everything will be different.
07)have you talked bout marriage with another before?
yupp, like how i want to end up getting married or like how i want to arrange benn's wedding ((: HAHAHA.
08)do you want children?
definitely ((: i love children.
09)how many?
two. the guy must come first so that he can protect his little sister. >.<
10)would you consider adoption?
it could be a second option? i dunt mind but i still want my own kids! ((:
11)if someone liked you right now what do you think is the best way to let you know his feelings?
tell me and not keep me in the dark. especially if he's my good friend ((:
12)do you enjoy getting into relationships?
err.. ?? it gets complicated but it's quite worth i think. haha.
13)be honest,what is the furthest you and your ex did?
-.-
14)do you believe in love at first sight?
love at first sight wouldnt be that kind of love that would last long because you'll like or love that person based on their looks, which would most probably be an infatuation and the feeling would most probably be gone after a while, if not then you'll start obsessing. does that even answer the question? o.O
15)are you romantic?
?? i am a romantic. HAHA. sucker for romance? hehe.
16)do you believe you can change someone?
yupps, it's tested and proven ((:
17)if you could marry somewhere,where would it be?
Dunt know. it depends on where i would be right? how bout paris? it's like the most romantic place la. or like italy or something LOL.
18)do you easily give in when you are fighting?
yupps. that's why i always get bullied. =X
19)do you have feelings for someone right now?
what kind of feelings? :P
20)have you ever wished that you could have had someone but you messed it up?
i dont know. maybe?
21)have you ever broken a heart?
yupps, a few. )):
22)one day your best friend falls in love with the guy you are deeply in love with what would you do?
if he likes me or her, either way, i'd let go because the last person i would want to hurt is her, but then that would be really selfish of me because everyone would get hurt. so i guess, if he liked me then we'd all stay as mutual friends so nobody really gets hurt. right? and if he likes her, then i'd let go willingly although it will hurt a lot. and i'll pretend that i'm okay and be really happy for both of them because i really will be ((:
23)are you missing someone now?
sadly, yes.
i cant really think of anyone to ask right now so i'll just leave it like that ((: Abby has quizes that help cure my boredom and help me destress ((:
define the word jealousy,
how is that supposed to feel?
and when you're around it's like i notice every single thing that people do, including what you do...
HE will never abandon me, he's with me every step of the way.
- Riel
((:
;`5:54 PM