thank you. thank you really. it meant a lot to me, really.
And service was really good, even before the sermon and just the worship itself. because i felt him. he was there, he was so real. and i really thank him for being with me, for hugging me so tightly, for assuring me, loving me, and giving me second chances over and over again. for taking away just everything and now i feel light, i feel happy, and i feel wonderful. thank you. ((: i love you god! ((: the ever amazing father and friend.
the experience was indescibable, the tears i shed, the things he spoke to me about. everything was just so special, so powerful. amazing, utterly amazing ((:
PFT was good though i deproved and all, and i felt that i could push even harder but, i still thank God for seeing me through. yes i was dying, i was tired, my muscles were numbing, but he saw me through and it felt weird to just close my eyes and certain points of time and just run as i talk to god. but who cares right? cause he saw me through and i did better than my trial run ((: <3 god does amazing things. he really does ((: i wonder where i'll be without him. cause it seems that without him, i cant even survive one day through...
SIX DAYS TO MIDS. OH DEAR )):
silly me. once bitten twice shy right? and i should have knowned better. right? oh well, it happened anyway. i learnt my lesson. =X
and every mistake has its price to pay doesnt it? and my price is you.
some people make make mistakes, but dont they learn from it? some people make mistakes, but they're given a second chance. Some people make mistakes and then that's it for them. Is it really?
i know you are disappointed. i know you're mad and i guesss i deserve it. i'm sorry. i deserve it.
In my entire life, i never thought i'd disappoint you but i did, and i'm sorry. i know i hurt you. and i think it hurts me most to know that i had disappointed you. i think it hurts me most to know that everytime i look at you, i see pain and i see that distrust. i know you thought i thought better but i guess i didnt. i made a huge mistake that right now i cant take back and the only thing i can do is apologize and hope that one day, you'll stop hurting and you'll start to believe me again. i'm sorry i disappointed you. i'm sorry i made the same mistake you wished and prayed and warned me that i should never.
Yes i'm back! HAHA. let's see, singaporeans are SOOO blind!! Soul fusion is like uber good larr. why BOTTOM three?!!? And and, Vas and Pris make dancing sooooo romantic and like sweet and just beautiful, really beautiful ((: DANCEE <3
it's DJW, and for the past three days it's just been starting the day with worship and just soaking yourself in the presence of God. Truly, he was there. And i could just throw down, let go everything bothering me, the chaos, the pain, the confusion, the stress, the weariness. i could just let go and bask in the almighty presence of my father. i felt so light, so burden free and today was the best and God showed me that he will work in MG. you just have to have faith, to trust him and to keep praying (:
and i saw many people cry, many people truly finding themselves in God and it touched my heart, and i saw their hidden pain, their struggles, i felt them and i cried for you. I really believe that the lord will create and will do such a deep work in MG. and i'm hoping and believing that DJW will be the first step to such a revival in MG. I'm praying, seeking and believing in you lord.
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I've been looking til my eyes are tired of looking Listening til my ears are numb from listening Praying til my knees are sore from kneeling on the bedroom floor I know that You know that my heart is aching I'm running out of tears and my will is breaking I don't think that I can carry the burden of it anymore All of my hopes and my dreams and my best laid plans Are slowly slipping through my folded hands
So I'm gonna lay it down I'm gonna learn to trust you now What else can I do? Everything I am depends on you And if the sun don't come back up I know Your love will be enough I'm gonna let it be I'm gonna let it go I'm gonna lay it down
I've been walking through this world like I'm barely living Buried in the doubt of this hole I've been digging But You're pulling me out and I'm finally breathing in the open air This room may be dark but I'm finally seeing There's a new ray of hope and now I'm believing That the past is the past and future's beginning to look brighter now Oh, Cause all of my hopes and my dreams and my best laid plans Are safe and secure when I place them in Your hands
Lay It Down - Jaci Velasquez
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And the Latter days will be greater won't it? And i know lord that i can trust in you, that you will heal that wound that cuts so deep, that you will take that burden that weighs me down. i'm going to lay it down.
Great is He, my rock and my salvation The hope on which i stand ((: - Riel
one word to describe my attempt to fool you ; FOOLISH
yes, now you know, everything was nothing but something that a little senseless girl typed out on friday thinking how fun it'd be to fool someone on april fool's and of course she thought wrong. sadly, she finally woke up the next day, realising that maybe, it wasn't so funny after all. but then, at the end of the last already deleted post, guess what? the joke was on her, on me. so people who fretted, and who cared, i'm so so sorry. this little girl went over board i guess and she's not that proud of what she did. in fact i'm pretty disappointed in myself. how terrible of me. )):
But anyway, putting that idiot thing i did VERY wrong aside, i shall thank the people who came to support me at my bap that day, though that was pretty long ago. but truly it meant a lot to me. i mean, worship was about to start, and i couldnt see ANYONE that i knew, except maybe for the baptees. and i felt like scared and then, i saw the GUYS. so yes, thanks you people. Mo, Fang, Dylan and crew (: so later, after a while of 'patiently' waiting for like my mum who i never saw on that day actually i spotted my dearest jie, Jeann, Chengtng and Zhihe ((: thanks for being there ((: i didnt see the dearest people like Benn, Jo, Abby and all but i heard them so thank you (: And to Huirou for your letter (: Sister Kassey's section for writing to me, forced or not forced, thank you (: Dee, for being there ((: and not to forget my dearly beloved chem teacher Jas for the HUGG ((: My family ((:God who was always there for me from start to finish ((: Oh yes, and to those who wrote me letters, congratulated me on my tagboard and personally thank you ((: I LOVEE YOU GUYS!! <3
Combined CF was FUN. send me the pictures jeann!! ((: or MO.
AH no time. i wanna watch the dance floor. ((: yes, i take an incredulous long time to blog. i wonder what i do HAHA =X shall edit later or just post another day.
yay internet - Riel
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