and i know i shouldnt even be blogging. not now, since eoys are like TWO DAYS AWAY! but ah wells, i felt i needed to have at least one september post. after all tomorrow is october already ((:
and i cant help but feel excited about post EOYS! (: not because there's world cup and asian cup but because i will be FREE! whoohoo ((:
alright a happy post i guess. all my post are usually emo. maybe because i usually feel like blogging when i'm emo. afterall if i post everyday about how my day went, even i would bore myself to death LOL!
hmms, land fill empouldering flocculate BAHH geog =X
and yes benn i finally saw where flocculate was. tskk, i didn't even study that yet when you mentioned it yesterday, hmms, the more i study for geog, the more i realise to some point or rather some extent it seems interesting. it's pretty amazing how our brain is wired really. Like how when met with a problem, we find ways to overcome it. and how nature is really all that beautiful. every single part of it. well so maybe i'm learning about human geog and not physical like last year. but it still is nature, still part of God's creation. and i find myself enjoying it sort of. maybe it's only when you take time to learn about nature that you can truly appreciate it.. or maybe not. You can just fall in love with all of God's creations without knowing how it came about right? and there's so many things i've yet to understand, but slowly. ((:
and talking to nick was kinda like an eyeopener. Like, i've never really thought of it in a way that, studying itself is like what God had in mind for us and that somehow, it ought to be something worth learning, something we should try to understand. i guess it just never occured to me that maybe it's just what God wants us to do. to understand how he made things, to be in awe, to love what he has done, to treasure every single bit of his creations. hmm, never judge a book by it's cover; and i had to learn that from him. HAH! he so does not look like the type. PSH.
anyways, subject combi, now it's bad. i have no idea if i want to take Lit anymore. i kinda like geog. right? indecisive.and i'll let you be my judge Lord, whatever's best for me, i'll follow you through. to a point of no return.
and service was super good yesterday. and i realise that maybe the front, the bouncing back, maybe that's really the area where i need to let go, to turn to you instead. i find it difficult i guess, how i know i can just depend on you for strength, to draw strength from you and yet with all these said, i find myself being so 'strong', depending on my strength alone, going back to my Moab. and it just took one minute. the one minute you decided to show me what i really am on the inside without the dependence on myself. Pained; Fragile; Vulnerable; Hurt; Scarred; Scared; Affected.
and then somehow you took it all away. i'll learn to draw strength from you from now on. to go to a point of no return. i love you my superhero daddy. i love you for always catching me when i fall. for reminding me that you see who i really am on the inside. and you care.
I'm so secure You're here with me You stay the same Your love remains Here in my heart
So close I believe You're holding me now In Your Hands I belong You'll never let me go
You gave your life In Your endless love You set me free And showed the way Now I am found
All along You were beside me Even when I couldn't tell Through the years You showed me more of You More of You .
HAHA. on a bittersweet note, satuday was wasted, like totally. pfft. i think i have not enough discipline LOL. but catching was fun. i love you abby cheo and joelle yong; My de-stress buddies. oh and and brenda, janet and alison haha. it was awesomely fun. though very wasted.
ah wells, 1 half week more and then. WHOO!
Funny how we keep bumping into each other and yet we just walk away. no hellos, no goodbyes. just this one glance and then there we go again, pretending each other's non-existence. but then again, i hope that'll be over. And i wont make the first move take initiative why does that sound so wrong? AH WELLS
i love, love my saturdays ((: daddy makes my days. ALWAYS ((: