. i am not dense. i am not blind to all of it. but i will walk away anyways, pretending that it's alright; everything's alright. when it's not.
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Wrong Thinking. Everything's going to be okay, Because no matter what i have You God and that's all that matters. Not the situations in life that i meet, But you.
Far beyond the surface You'll Be There; - Riel
;`11:46 AM
{Monday, February 04, 2008 YY
and sleepless nights have taken over. Funny how my Sundays always seem to end so dramatically. And yet, funny as it seems, usually they just scare me a lot, leave me all drained or worried. Sundays, sundays, somehow they always seem to have loads of unexpected surprises awaiting me. Oh how wonderful, and please notice the sarcasm.
Helpless. i guess sometimes, people meet with situations where, they are incapable of helping someone they love, someone they care for. And i suppose, the reason for their incapabilities is not because they don't want to, but seem to not be able to do enough for the person? i guess when you think about it, it feels crappy, knowing that what you do will never be enough to make someone feel better. And when you feel helpless, i guess the only thing you actually then start doing is worry.
Worrying, worrying. The act of worrying is pretty much quite useless as there's nothing you get out of it except restlessness, anxiousness and just the disability to focus on anything you're pretty much tasked out to do. But even so, people worry anyways. About life, about problems, about situations that they cannot do much about. useless as it seems, it's just like that. People worry. Fullstop.
But at the end of the day, sometimes after all the worrying, we realise, i realise that there isnt a need to. because God is above and beyond every situation in life. No matter how incapable you are of helping, God will still always be there for you, and for the person or people you care so much about. At the end of the day, no matter how useless or helpless you feel, you'll finally understand that the smallest action of even just caring and being there for someone is actually one of the biggest encouragement that anyone can give or rather get.
Sunday has been a whirlwind of events. But i guess, it made me realise that God you're mighty to save, and that you're always above and beyond every situation. Even when i'm helpless and weak, you become stronger. (:
Today's been somewhat tiring too. But the holidays are coming. Something i'm looking forward to. YAY.
My dear, no matter what, and even after everything, after all the consequences, results that you'll have to face, i believe that you'll emerge victorious because i know it's going to be okay, Because as havoc as it will be, or rather is, i know very well, that you'll be alright at the end of the day, because you are God's mighty warrior, and no matter what, his plans and purposes for you will never change. you're going to be okay. Dont mask, dont act as if youre alright for the time being. Makes it all the more worse. Take care my dear.
and i dont understand what youre trying to get at. and the craziest part is that i'm scared of what you're trying to mean indirectly. somehow i dont wanna know.
And into my second month of school now. it's been tiring. and it seems like i'm always looking forward to my fridays. I guess that's quite standard eh? But i guess everything seems to be slowly fixing itself into place, adjusting and all.
January has been a pretty wild month. Most of it pretty draining; physically, psychologically and emotionally. But yes, i've come through in the end anyways(: God's been good really, and i suppose, that's what's keeping me smiling and laughing each and everyday. because i've got You by my side, and that's all i need to survive my weeks of tests and more tests(:
On a really random note, i realise i dream almost every night. Which is crapp because that means i'm semi conscious when i'm sleeping, which actually means i am not able to get more sleep than normal people who have dreamless nights. That's totally, totally unfair): But then again, sometimes my dreams are so random that it's rather funny and rather nice. Oh wells. I had a rather nice dream last night. Yay me. LOL.
Okay, i shall finish my late january shoutouts(:
To: Mr Jared Koh Hmm, you've been an awful bully but a really nice friend. HAPPY BELATED! You're 17 now, quite OLD but it's alright(: tsk. I believe that as you've been placed in AC, that you'll be the light that God has called you to be. Congrats on results by the way(: (But I highly doubt you will read this anyways)
To: CC ESHYEN I miss you loads, really. And we really have to meet soon, like MARCH sleepover or sth(: My dear primary school friend. Love you LOADS(: Happy Belated!
To: Geri is RAWRR Lol Dear girl, happy BELATED birthday(: Sitting with you is awsome funny(: Thank you for always helping me with MATH. You smart not so little anymore dear girl. LOVE YOU LOADS! And keep your 15th Feb evening FREE okay?(:
To: Chet KOR/GLG There's so much to say but i hardly know how to put it. Thanks for always being there and always being the stupid annoying funny guy that never fails to make me laugh when i'm down. I really admire you for all that you've done and said to me. Thank You. There's probably more but i think i wrote it in your card so, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY(: Continue to grow in the Lord, And do not miss any FUELL cause if not then i'll have to -YEAH- =X
To: SHERR love, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!(: Known you for really long long time. whatever i want to say is in your birthday letter(i havent given it to you yet. i'm sorry.) But i love you loads and i'll try to run fast for relay. i suck though HAHA. :P
Lazy to put up pretty pictures. maybe another time. Tsk Tsk.
empty words, you threw me off guard.
I saw you -Riel
;`1:51 PM
♥ My Love;
"Before I formed you in the womb i knew you,
before you were born I set you apart;
I appointed you as a prophet to the nations."
Jeremiah 1:5
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